I was just thinking about Intuition this morning and how we’re all gifted with it. Not just mothers, not just women and certainly not just those born under specific star signs.
As I coast into my 30s I realise that it’s all a matter of really listening to the cues your body gives you. What does your heart say? Your brain? Why is there a sudden adrenaline spike? What is that tug at the pit of your stomach? Why does your hand reach out to the left option automatically? I have always second guessed these decisions but I’m slowly learning to trust my intuition and see where it guides me.
Very forward thinking, no? Makes you feel like hey, she’s got things under control. Nope.
After this whole internal spiel about Intuition and trusting my body, I went about my daily routine: Cats, Shower, Skincare, Essential Oils, Prayers and Setting Intentions. After all that was done, I was feeling content but I suddenly felt something pull at my core. I felt such an overwhelming sense of sadness and I had no idea why. So I asked myself what I wanted to do with this and I replayed what my therapist said: “If you feel it, just feel it. What’s so bad about crying and letting go?” She said this because I had a tendency to suppress my feelings until the cup overflows (or bursts) so to speak. Therefore, feel I did. I found a corner and cried big fat horrible tears even though there was nothing that triggered me to feel sad.
Unfortunately for me, these were not healing tears. They made me feel worse than I when I started. And let’s just fast forward to present time: I had a HUGE ROW with my partner which made me feel double the sadness than when I finished crying!
Therefore, my question right now is: should I have really listened to that voice inside my head? Is my intuition broken? Or am I meant to go through all that heartbreak in order to get better things?
Wait. That’s more that one question. Oh well.
Let me know what you think peeps. Do you trust your own intuition? Does it lead you down the path of convenience and safety or does it lead you to where you’re meant to be?
Oh. My. God.
It’s been a good 4 and a half years since my last blog entry. I don’t even know if blogging is still a thing. I’m guessing it is since my IG timeline is still full of bloggers and influencers. Did we already have that word coined in 2014? Oh God, I’m not starting to sound like I’m 60, am I?
Hang on, I need a breather.
Well, the only reason I’m turning back to blogging is because my therapist thought it would be a good idea to start journaling again. I do write things down with pen and paper but sometimes my narcissism gets the best of me and I find publishing my thoughts a much better form of therapy.
For one, it forces me to write in complete sentences with good grammar (for the most part) and two, I have to reread what I’ve written which in turns help me realise that things aren’t that bad. It basically turns the anxiety down a notch.
Now the only problem with blogging is my lack of consistency. It’s a recurring theme in my life. So I’m trying to commit myself to posting once or twice a week on stuff that I like. It won’t be as cute as before. At 32, I barely feel cute but I do feel badass most times. I am also quite Salty now so that’s a heads up for all of you. Anyway, you guys (the 2 people who read my blog) will be able to hold me accountable for the steady stream of posts.
Well, that was a good start. I’m just going to submit this coz it’s on my to do list and my fingers are itching to cross it out. I’ll try to reorganise and archive everything by next week so it will be easier to navigate.
See ya folks lay-tah!
I can hardly contain my excitement. No, not for my birthday. Well, not yet anyway. This weekend I’ll be attending an amazing seminar/course on marketing and business. We’re going to have a crash course on building a better business and pushing it into as many streams as possible. The final goal is to be wealthy and successful. :D
I know, some of you might say it’s not easy, it’s near impossible, that being wealthy means you’ll be a prick or worse, just trample everyone else in the process. However, that’s not how I see it. How do I provide for my family if all I’m earning is just a meager salary? How do I travel the world with just enough to get by? How do I make sure my family (including my kitty cats) are always in good health and happy if I only make just a little extra every month?
Money can’t buy you happiness but trust me, not having enough can make you pretty darn upset.
Therefore, I’ve opted to join this course and I’m absolutely pumped to absorb all I can for three days.
Now, the reason why I mentioned my birthday is that the start of said course will begin exactly 30 days before my birthday. I’m taking it as turning point for my life. I plan on learning as much as I can, applying as much as I can in order to build myself as much as I can before my birthday. That’s my mini goal.
I’m definitely not going to stop after my birthday. As we all know, learning NEVER stops and neither is improving oneself. I just want to use my birthday as a checkpoint of sorts and I want to be proud of myself, the day I step into the shoes of a 26-year-old. I hope to say to myself ‘I did my very best and worked very hard to be here’.
So here’s to a new beginning and I do hope to update you on my progress soon. :D
I found this while perusing the internet and I now unfortunately don’t remember where I got it from. If you know the creator, let me know so I can credit them properly. :)
I just came back from a seminar on being an industry millionaire. The speaker said he could identify between 3-5 businesses that a person could delve in just by knowing their interests. I thought ‘wow. imagine being able to do ALL that at the same time!’ and you know what, the speaker is doing that exact thing now. He’s got about 15 companies under his belt and they are all based on his passions or interests.
Therefore, it would be easy to say that yes, you CAN form your dream job just by indulging in the different facets of your life while making money out of it.
You can open an online boutique while sharing your recipes at the same time. You can also publish a book about meeting new people while being a fitness instructor. The possibilities are endless! There’s no box to insert yourself into and claim, ‘I found it! My dream job!’. There are so many boxes that you can collect and tape them up to form an amazing shelf that is sturdy enough to hold all your belongings. And look at it this way, if one box crumbles, you’ll still have the others to support your things. Or just add another one!
The seminar got me really pumped up and motivated so my biz partner and I are going to do some heavy thinking and planning today for Simply Sandwiches. :D Wish us luck!
Print from Remember Your First Love.
There are days when you get really discouraged with what you’re doing. Even if you’re pushing with all your might, things seem to leak out at the cracks.
I’m trying very hard not to delve deeper into my troubles and I’m practicing filtering what I share with people. You don’t want to seem too riled up about something when you know that it’s just part of life. Besides, all things come to an end, good things or bad.
The mantra above is what I’ve been silently chanting to myself on a daily basis. It has helped. So has dream building and being thankful for what I DO have. I think that’s a good exercise. Listing down what you’re thankful for and reciting them every morning or whenever you’re feeling down. Before you know it, all the negative thoughts have slipped away quietly from your head.
What do you do to chase the blues away?
As usual, it’s been ages since I’ve penned an entry into this blog. Instead of making excuses, I’ll just lay out my proposal for you.
I’ll be sharing more personal thoughts on this space in addition to the usual pretty pictures and cute finds. I’ll be filing them under the ‘Journal Entries’ tab so you can separate them from the normal content. I find that writing long notes and rants quite therapeutic and considering my dwindling writing skills, I thought I’d start typing out those thoughts instead of letting them simmer in my head.
This time I promise I shall make it a point to update ever so often. :)